Roger Eugene Gosnell

                                            Christmas memorys

Memories of you over flow me this time of year, i miss you so much i can't stand it some times, mom would like to have you here for thanksgiveing , i sure am thankful for the ones we had and am looking forward to seeing you again when God see's fit.

                                   The memory of my Son by a little girl

 

 

 

 

                    The memory of a little girl of my son

 

 

 

             

                          last easter with us

 

 

 

 

 

 

Happy Valentine's Day Roger!!!

                                         Happy valentine day

                                                                                                

 

                                                   THANK YOU

I just wanted to start this new year and thank everyone of you for all the kind things you have done to help me keep my son's memory alive, you just will never know what you all have meant to me , people i never met have helped me more than people i have known all my life ,we have a bond (our angels) and as long as my fingers will move i will help keep them alive. you all have touched my life in a mighty way and i will never forget you. again i just can't say enough, we may be far apart but we are forever bonded together and someday i hope and pray we will be reunited with our angels and we can tell them all about it. GOD BLESS YOU AND FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART THANKS SO MUCH FOR KEEPING ME SANE.                     Rogers mom Phyllis

You know as i sit here tonight the night before Christmas i think of 43 yrs of momories we had together, just like the year mom bought you and mike a train set and i kept thinking there was something else i had bought you but i couldn't find anything else so we went on with our Christmas, in about a month later i found it , i had put it up where you and your brother could'n find it and i forgot it but you got a late christmas present didn' you.and the candy you always wanted  me to make. we had some good times . you have blessed me with some great memories and i will never forget them. a bond between a mom and son is strong . we had a great time together , i saw in the paper where they were haveing that live nativeity scene that you took me and Eddie and your sisters to. we will never forget . i went to the grave today we have tryed to make it look festive and it does. thanks for being with me when i go.Thanks for the memories and when my time is up we will catch up. MOM LOVES YOU MERRY CHRISTMAS BABY.     

It is Christmas time and I think of all the years past when you were there to share in the laughter with your dad and brothers.  You always had a funny story to tell about hunting or somewhere you had been and something you had seen.  The kids loved to pick at you too.  I remember how you loved the pumpkin cake with cream cheese icing that I made one year.  We can't go backwards because God didn't create us that way, but as we go forward it will be with great memories that you have given to your dad and I.  All those years came and went and we really didn't realize how special they were at the time.  I hope you know how special it is for your daddy to be in church now.  That is one great thing you gave him after all was said and done.  As you rest in the peace you had long searched for, I hope you are able to help all your family fill the void and emptiness that has been left in our lives.  You are always greatly missed and loved deeply.

 

 

PLEASE DON'T TELL ME KNOW HOW I FEEL, UNLESS YOU TO HAVE LOST A CHILD
PLEASE DON'T TELL ME MY BROKEN HEART WILL HEAL IT'S JUST NOT TRUE
PLEASE DON'T TELL ME MY SON IS IN A BETTER PLACE I KNOW IT'S TRUE
BUT UNDERSTAND ME WHEN I SAY I WANT HIM HERE WITH ME
PLEASE DON'T TELL ME SOMEDAY I'LL HEAR HIS VOICE AND SEE HIS BEAUTIFUL FACE
FOR BEYOND TODAY I JUST CANNOT SEE
PLEASE DON'T TELL ME IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON BECAUSE I CANNOT
PLEASE DON'T TELL ME TO FACE THE FACT THAT HE IS GONE
BECAUSE DENIAL IS SOMETHING I CANNOT STOP
PLEASE DON'T TELL ME TO BE THANKFUL FOR THE TIME I HAD WITH HIM
BECAUSE I WANTED MORE TIME WITH ROGER PLEASE DON'T TELL ME WHEN I'M MY OLD SELF AGAIN YOU'LL BE GLAD
FOR I NEVER BE AS I WAS BEFORE WHAT YOU CAN TELL ME IS
THAT YOU  WILL BE HERE FOR ME, THAT YOU WILL LISTEN WHEN I TALK OF ROGER
THAT YOU WILL SHARE WITH ME YOUR MEMORIES OF MY SON, YOU CAN EVEN CRY
WITH ME FOR A WHILE, AND PLEASE DON'T HESITATE TO SAY HIS NAME BECAUSE IT IS
SOMETHING  I LONG TO HEAR EVERYDAY,SO MY DEAR FRIEND PLEASE REALIZE THAT
I CAN NEVER BE THE SAME,BUT IF YOU STAND BY ME YOU WILL LIKE THE NEW PERSON
I BECOME SOMEDAY.

 

LETTER FROM HEAVEN - From Roger

 

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say

   But first of all, I want you to know that I arrived OK.

I'm writing this letter from Heaven; here I dwell with God above,

Here, there are no more tears of sadness-there is just eternal love.

 

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.

Remember that I am with you every morning noon and night.

That day I had to leave you, when my life on earth was through;

God picked me and hugged me and he said, "I welcome you!"

 

"It's good to have you here again; your were missed while you were gone;

As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.

I need you here so badly; you are part of my great plan,

There's so much that we have to do to help our mortal man."

 

God gave me a list of things that he wished for me to do,

And foremost on the list was to watch and care for you.

And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight,

God and I are close to you in the middle of the night.

 

When you think of my life on earth and all those loving years,

Because you are only human, they're bound to bring some tears.

But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain,

Remember there would be no flowers if we didn't have the rain.

 

I wish that I could tell you, all that God has planned

If I were to tell you; you wouldn't understand.

But for one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is over,

I'm closer to you now that I ever was before.

 

There are many rocky roads ahead and many hills to climb,

But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.

When you're walking down the street and you've  got me on your mind,

I'm walking in your footsteps, only half a step behind..

And when it's time for you to go...from that body to be free.

Remember...you're not GOING; You're just COMING home to me!

                      

 

I fell as though my heart must stop with pain.
I miss you so, the darkness will not pale.
My darling son, come to me again.
I know you cannot come, and still I strain
To put my arms around you through the veil.
I feel as though my heart must stop with pain.
Other lives and loves call me in vain.
I try to turn away from you and fail.
My darling son, come to me again.
You are my unendurable refrain.
Back and back I hurry to impale
My heart on you, to stop my heart with pain.
Yet nothing that I do undoes the plain
brutal fact which always must prevail.
Ah, my darling son, come to me again!
You are both my sunshine and my rain,
My dearest joy, my anguish, and my grail.
I feel as though my heart must stop with pain.
My darling son, come to me again.
I love and miss you, MOM

 

Christmas In Heaven

I see the countless Christmas Trees around the world below
with tiny lights like Heaven's Stars reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so Spectacular please wipe away that tear
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas Songs that people hold so dear
but the Sounds of Music can't compare with the Christmas Choir up here.

I have no words to tell you of the Joy their voices bring
for it is beyond description to Hear the Angels Sing.

I know How Much You Miss Me, I see the pain inside your heart
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I can't tell you of the Splendor or the Peace here in this place
can you just imagine Christmas with Our Savior face to face?

I'll ask him to Lift Your Spirit as I tell him of your love
so then Pray for One Another as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your Hearts be Joyful and let your Spirit Sing
for I am spending Christmas in Heaven and I'm walking with the King.

Merry Christmas Sweetheart: 2008 6 months without you                                  Hey Baby,
Christmas is approaching, another year without you... I always seem to think about you more and miss you more during the Holidays. I guess because the Holidays are spent with family especially our children and you're second child and you're not here.

Christmas is about the birth of Jesus. When I think about him and all his Angels I always know that you're close by. I miss you so much and wish you were still here with me. I let myself dream about what it would be like to still have you here. Things like going shopping and eating meals together and just cutting up like we use to. I miss that so much!!!!

Gosh, I can't believe you'll be was 44 in August. You're getting old (baby boy)...I can't wait till I can see you again. I get excited sometimes when I'm talking to you through a letter, until reality hits and I realize it should not be this way. A mother shouldn't have to talk to her child in Heaven. A child should be with their mama, always or at least a phone call away.

I hope God let's all our love ones hear their mom's I love yous. I love you Roger with all my heart and soul.
Merry Christmas Son, Forever and Always, Mama