Roger Eugene Gosnell

I bought you an angel for your Christmas gift.
She stands by your picture and the candle that's lit.
I bought you a wreath for your Christmas gift.
It lies by your cross and I wish that you'd lived.
I remember the gifts of Christmas's past.
The toys, the clothes - some meant to last.
"An exhaust for my bike!" I hear you say.
How do you wrap that for Christmas day?
But now you're gone and there is no joy,
And I'd give the world, my darling boy
To see your smiling face once more.
To hear you come through the door,
Full of laughter - full of fun.
How I miss my precious son.
I bought you an angel for your Christmas gift.
She stands by your picture and the candle that's lit.
I bought you a wreath for your Christmas gift.
It lies by your cross and I wish that you'd lived.
Merry Christmas darling. 

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Christmas Without You

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Christmas without you here with me,
can never possibly be the same.
But I carry an Angel within my heart;
one so precious, who has your name.

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An Angel forever watching over me,
at Christmas time and over the year.
Although you can’t be here anymore,
inside my heart, you are so very near.

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There is no special present for you,
wrapped under my Christmas tree.
But I have a greater gift to give to you,
all the love you can still feel from me.

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No, Christmas time without you here,
could not ever possibly be the same.
But, I have had the precious gift of you,
and the memories and love, will remain

To Those I Love and Those Who Love Me
(Author Unknown)

When I am gone, release me, let me go,
I have so many things to see and do,
You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears.
Be happy that we had so many years.

I gave you my love,  You can only guess,
How much you gave to me in happiness.
I thank you for the love you each have shown,
But now it is time I travel alone.

So greive a while for if grieve you must,
then let your grief be, comforted by trust.
It's only for awhile that we must part, 
so bless the memories within your heart.

I won't be far away, for life goes on.
So if you need me, call and I will come.

Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near.
And if you listen with your heart, you'll hear,
All of my love around you, soft and clear.

And then, when you must come this way alone,
I'll greet you with a smile, and say,.......

It may be the last
time spent with you
is like sand in the hour glass
slowly fading away
every minute I touch your face,
every second I hear you laugh
it echos in my mind, it may be the last
every time you make me smile,
I lock it deeply into my soul
every night I wish upon a star
hoping your wishing on mine
for I fear our star is fading,
I am afraid to blink for one minute
fearing you will disappear
I'm afraid to release you from my mind,
it is the reminder of you I have left
If the only way I could be with you forever
is in my dreams,
then I will sleep for eternity
my heart clings to you, not yet realizing,
your already gone

Five months ago today you left us and i'm no closer to letting you go than i was then.when i lost you i lost so much of myself people just don't realize.five months ago today at this time you were comeing back from fishing and you called me said you were comeing back,told me you loved me and i told you i loved you .we never know when that final i love you may be said,we should always make it as real as we knew it was our last.five months ago last night you were with me at june dairy days laughing talking on that harley looking so handsome.that was the last time i was in your arms, you huged me said you loved me and drove off,for some reason i couldn't  watch you leave. I MISS YOU MY DEAR SON.TO BE FORGOTTON NEVER...............

You know about two weeks ago there was a wreck on the by-pass , i got to one of the boys first young boy about twenty he was in alot of pain and i helt his hand tryed to do the spinal hold on him he begged me not to leave him and i told him i wouldn't i stayed until they wheeled him away it felt good to be able to help someone. it brought to my mind of a wreck you helped with one day it happened right in front of you the man was on a motorcycle he was laying in the middle of the road and no one was stopping or slowing down you was afraid someone was going to run over him so you pulled your truck right up beside him and got out to help him that's just the kind of person you were didn't worry about yourself you are missed.

This time of year brings back the memories of camping together and you and daddy going hunting.  I remember when we all camped on Hickey's Fork and all the men would sit around at night and laugh and tell their hunting stories.  I also remember camping in Townsend and you and Jeff rode bicycles all the way around Cades Cove and then all the way back to the campground in Townsend.  You went with Slowly and your dad to yardsales and came back with a big truck load of really nice furniture.  You really had a way of making good deals with people.  Daddy misses you and although the words were not spoken very often, daddy loved you very much.

On your birtday we gathered at your grave, and left flowers and brought balloon's you would say i'm not a child mom, but to me you will always be my baby, i'm trying to go on for your brother's and sister's, but there is a part of me gone and will never return, a part of my heart is missing, i'm glad you called me the day you died we got to say we loved each other when you told me you loved me that last time it is enbedded in my mind, i can still hear it like it was yesterday. and me and you know how true that LOVE was.i wrote you a note and let it go with a balloon hope you got it. Kathy ,Beth, your Dad,Debbie and Me and Eddie was there..HAPPY BIRTHDAY.....................

Roger lettered in Golf at South Greene High Schooll ,and he enjoyed playing with his brother's and grandad after School and won many trophies, after his grandad passed away they all seemed to not want to play any more. it was like they couldn't do it without him. He was the best Grandad ever.now you are with him.

Well it's almost hunting season son, i'm sure your brother's and friends miss you. Dean said he would never find one to hunt with like you because you and him did it all. no standing on the sideline for you, they are already in training season , me and Eddie went up there about a week ago and listened to the dogs run, your friend Chris stopped and talk to us for about two hours he said it brought back memories seeing your truck there it was so nice to talk to him and share our missing you with him.we all miss you so.

I was looking at this picture today and remembering that day, i took you to town and we spent the day together and i had your picture made, it was hard to take you and your brother both to town by myself, so mom kept Mike and me and you had the day together, it was so nice you was such a beautiful baby or should i say handsome . i miss you baby i'm remembering the good times, mommy loves and misses you so. 

I remember when you was going fishing and ma was going to help you dig worms, i guess you was ten she was picking them up and you was digging ,she bent down to pick one up just as you was digging, it hit her in the head everyone was blaming you and ma just had a fit she said it wasn't your fault she stuck her head in the way and she was right it wasn't your fault she loved you so much she just took it in stride and helped you the next time it was fun with her wasn't it?

WHEN A PARENT DIES YOU LOSE YOUR PAST. WHEN A CHILD DIES YOU LOSE YOUR FUTURE  A WIFE WHO LOSES A HUSBAND IS CALLED A WIDOW. A HUSBAND WHO LOSES WIFE IS CALLED A WIDOWER. A CHILD WHO LOSES HIS PARENTS IS CALLED AN ORPHAN. BUT... THERE IS NO WORD FOR A PARENT WHO LOSES A CHILD;THATS HOW AWFUL THE LOSS IS

Today 44 yrs ago you would have been 2 days old i was still in the hospital with you and looking forward to bringing you home your granny was there, ma and susie if i remember right they were all wanting to keep your brother which was just 13 months old but we worked it out and they shared you was such a blessing to me i  was so  young we grew up together but i was your mom and i loved you more than life, we had some good times and some bad but the good out weighes the bad. parents dont always see eye to eye with their child, but we loved each other and that was no dought. i miss you son ,i feel so much pain i cant even explain, goodnight baby boy wait for me. FOREVER ROGER  

Remember today 24 yrs ago you had a baby sister, didnt expect that did you ? but i know you loved each other very much so it was ok, miss you baby.

Its almost your birthday son i wish i could see you but i remember that i was carrying you 43yrs ago i was getting ready for your arrival the little clothes and blankets that we would use for you seemed so small but you were a bundle of love as me and your dad looked at you , never forget mom loves you . FOREVER ROGER.